In November 2012, Alexandra Janelli from Theta Spring hypnotized me. The goal of the session was to enable me to make drawings while in the hypnotic state. I received a recording of the session that I could listen to, and the recording would put me in a hypnotic trance where I could make drawings. In this video, I listened to the recording and made a drawing on the floor of my studio. Then I proceeded to destroy the drawing by sweeping it up. All of the drawings I have done under hypnosis I have been alone, except this one. This drawing was filmed on 16mm by my friend, Rachael Williams and she is the only other person who saw the drawing in person. The recording that I listen to is twenty minutes long and the trance usually lasts for thirty minutes. The sound is my edited version of the recorded session. This short video begins and ends in black and white, while the middle is in color. It represents going into a hypnotic state and then falling out of that trance.
Experiments in Mirror Drawing 2011
In this experiment, I drew with two hands at the exact same time, attempting to make the same stroke or gesture with both hands. I am right handed, but in this experiment, I used my left hand to simulate disorientation. However, I am more confident in drawing with my right hand because of years of experience of the hand being dexterous. Even though drawing with my left hand is shaky, my mind is able to concentrate and control the hand. Drawing in different positions with both hands at the same time is too advanced for me. It results in focus being given to one hand while the other hand arbitrarily scratches at the same mark. Now I draw with both hands simultaneously in order to shift focus away from the dominant hand. In these experiments the physical movement of the hands is symmetrical but the two sides in the drawing do not reflect each other. My seemingly symmetrical drawings are asymmetrical. Additionally, I am interested in the notion of an automatic drawing state — – one where the drawing comes either from the unconscious or simply from the enjoyment of the hand motions. In order to intensify this experience, I have been drawing blindfolded and two-handed, which physically forces me into an altered mental state.
Experiments in Faint Drawing 2011
In this experiment, I attempted to record the gesture of my own unconscious fall. I have synoptic episodes when I see blood, usually when I have blood drawn. Initially, these fainting spells were sparked by a traumatic event in my childhood when I watched my Mother have a blood transfusion. I am very afraid of fainting, but there is a strange, almost guilty pleasure I take from it. The act of fainting for me is a way to escape from my fearful situation. When I faint, I have fainting dreams or visions. Many times these visions are frightening and usually deal with my memory, forgetting who I am or what I should be doing.