Faint Visions

Faint Visions
In this project, I attempted to attain a trance state while drawing. I set up experiments for myself, becoming both doctor and patient. After exploring my unconscious self through these experiments, I reexamined these ideas through additional drawings. Not every drawing was the direct result of an altered state. I stress the word attempt. The residues of my drawing experiments were left in my studio. My studio became a drawing.

Faint Visions Installation  Entrance Door
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Door
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room (white room)
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing Swept up on Floor

 

Experiments in Self-Hypnosis Drawing
In this experiment, I used self-hypnosis videos from the Internet to lead me into a meditative state. While listening to a video, I mixed graphite and flour together and created a drawing on the floor of my studio. Then after I created the drawing, I destroyed it by sweeping it into a pile on the floor. I was the only person who saw the real completed drawing before destroying it, thus symbolizing my solitary visions. Another time I drew while watching the video with a round piece of paper.

Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (view from above)
Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (view from above)
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (Side View) Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concreate.
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (Side View)
Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concreate.
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (detail) Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concreate.
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing (detail)
Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concreate.
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing being destroyed. Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concrete.
Title: Self Hypnosis Floor Drawing being destroyed.
Materials: Flour, Graphite Powder on Concrete.

 

Experiments in Mirror Drawing

In this experiment, I drew with two hands at the exact same time, attempting to make the same stroke or gesture with both hands. I am right handed, but in this experiment I used my left hand to simulate disorientation. However, I am more confident drawing with my right hand because of years of experience of the hand being dexterous. Even though drawing with my left hand is shaky, my mind is able to concentrate and control the hand. Drawing in different positions with both hands at the same time is too advanced for me. It results in focus being given to one hand while the other hand arbitrarily scratches at the same mark. Now I draw with both hands simultaneously in order to shift focus away from the dominant hand. In these experiments the physical movement of the hands is symmetrical but the two sides in the drawing do not reflect each other. My seemingly symmetrical drawings are asymmetrical. Additionally, I am interested in the notion of an automatic drawing state — – one where the drawing comes either from the unconscious or simply from the enjoyment of the hand motions. In order to intensify this experience I have been drawing blindfolded and two handed, which physically forces me into an altered mental state.

Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Mirror Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Mirror Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Title: My Will Materials; Graphite and Ink on paper soaked in R&F Encaustic Medium.
Title: My Will
Materials; Graphite and Ink on paper soaked in R&F Encaustic Medium.

Prayer Drawings
In this experiment, I attempted to enter into a higher state of consciousness through the repetition of words and complete concentration and intention focused on those words. Handwriting is a form of drawing, and specific words have inherent power in them. I wished to harness that power and understanding of a word in order to gain a better understanding of myself. Many times I wrote the words in mirror writing and soaked the paper in wax so I can see every possible angle of a word. Soaking the drawings in wax also preserves the image and it is given as much immortality as possible. Many of the drawings I have done, I destroyed by painting one side of them and then ripping them up. It is simply a visual reminder about the eventual deterioration of the paper, the space, and myself.

Experiments in Faint Drawing
In this experiment, I attempted to record the gesture of my own unconscious fall. I have synoptic episodes when I see blood, usually when I have blood drawn. Initially, these fainting spells were sparked by a traumatic event in my childhood when I watched my Mother have a blood transfusion. I am very afraid of fainting, but there is a strange, almost guilty pleasure I take from it. The act of fainting for me is a way to escape from my fearful situation. When I faint, I have fainting dreams or visions. Many times these visions are frightening and usually deal with my memory, forgetting who I am or what I should be doing.

Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Faint Drawings on either wall and My Will drawing above door.
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Drawings on either wall and My Will drawing above door.
Title: Faint Drawing Two Materials: Graphite powder on drywall.
Title: Faint Drawing Two
Materials: Graphite powder on drywall.
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Faint Drawing One
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Drawing One
Title: Faint Drawing One Materials: Graphite powder, pearl pins, and white string on drywall.
Title: Faint Drawing One
Materials: Graphite powder, pearl pins, and white string on drywall.
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Faint Drawing One
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Drawing One
Crystal Dyer Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Revolving Bookcase with FIle Folders
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Revolving Bookcase with FIle Folders
Faint Visions Installation Entrance Room or the White Room Revolving Bookcase with FIle Folders
Faint Visions Installation
Entrance Room or the White Room
Revolving Bookcase with FIle Folders
Title: Blind Line Drawing Series: Faint Visions Dimensions: 2.5’x6’ Materials: Paper, Graphite, String, Pins Description: Drawing made blindfolded (Graphite, pins) then string placed with no blindfold on.
Title: Blind Line Drawing
Series: Faint Visions
Dimensions: 2.5’x6’
Materials: Paper, Graphite, String, Pins
Description: Drawing made blindfolded (Graphite, pins) then string placed with no blindfold on.

Experiments in Blind Drawing
In this experiment, I wore a blindfold when I drew. For two drawings I made the background and placed the pins with a blindfold on. Then later I reflected and re-evaluated the drawing by adding thread without the use of a blindfold.

Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room Faint Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room Faint Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Drawing Still
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation The Looking Glass Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Looking Glass Room
Natuetronics Model D Machine next to Shock Drawings.

Experiments in Shock Drawing

In this experiment,I used the apparatus of the Natuetronics Model D to influence my drawings. The Natuetronics Model D is an instrument that sends Bio-Active frequencies through a person’s body in order to cure a malady. Numbers are linked with different frequency patterns that are correlated to specific illnesses. The Model D that I used belonged to my Mother. As a child, the sound right before the sequence commenced filled me with an anticipating fear-like thunder before lightning. When I make a shock drawing, I choose numbers that correspond to illnesses of the mind such as hallucinations, dizziness, and other mental illnesses. The machine is running when I draw. I hold the metal conductive cylinders in my hands along with the pen I use to make the drawing. This experiment explores how pain is used to heal, and in the process pain can elevate one into another state of consciousness.

Faint Visions Installation

 

Faint Visions Installation View of The Looking Glass Room from The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation
View of The Looking Glass Room from The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite on drywall.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper. Graphite powder on drywall.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper and drywall.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Reflection of
Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper and drywall.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Left Side Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper with Mirror. Drawing made with Left Hand.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Left Side
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper with Mirror.
Drawing made with Left Hand.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Right Hand Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper with Mirror. Drawing made with the Right Hand.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title: Right Hand
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper with Mirror.
Drawing made with the Right Hand.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Reflection of Materials: Graphite and Ink on white paper
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Series: Mirror Drawing Title: Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Series: Mirror Drawing
Title:
Materials: Graphite and Ink on Ledger Paper
Drawings made by both hands drawing at the same time.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room Drawings torn up with wall paint on the reverse side scattered on the floor.
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room
Drawings torn up with wall paint on the reverse side scattered on the floor.
Faint Visions Installation The Secret Room
Faint Visions Installation
The Secret Room